Today at work was so busy and tiring. This whole time I was opening and closing doors for the customers in the fitting room and helping them when they needed a certain size. I also had to process their clothes that they didn’t want. I felt so tired, I kept on going back and forth opening and closing doors on the long hall way fitting room. I like my job but sometimes it just gets so crazy! I mean I am nice to the customers but sometimes there rudeness makes me so mad. So sometimes I feel like I am not nice to some of them and it makes me feel bad. Its just because it gets annoying. Today was so crazy the whole store was a mess and there were so much people. All the fitting rooms were full and some of them had to wait. But for the last two weeks work just makes me tired. I mean really tired. On friday I worked six to two thirty in the morning. When I Came home I just knock out on my bed and fell asleep. My legs and feet were so tired. Sometimes when I come home from work I get so tired that I don’t even want to hang out with my friends and I don’t even want to do my homework. Thats why I am so behind everything and I do it in the last minute. Work is going to be so busy for the next month in a half and I have to learn how to balance school and work and everything else. I can’t be procrastinating my whole college life it just not right and I’m so tired of it. I am not saying I don’t like my job because I do like my job, its just I have to find a way to balance everything else and when I do I think everything will be alright.

On Tuesday we acted out more scenes from M. Butterfly. This time we acted in pairs. My partner was Uyen and we had to act out Act 2, Scene 4. I played Song and Uyen played Chin. This scene was about when Chin comes to Song and tries to get information from Song about the war. When me and Uyen acted out our scenes in front of the class, I felt kind of comfortable acting it. I guess it’s because we practiced it and while we were practicing it Marilyn said that it was good. So it made me feel better than the way I acted Renee the other day. Watching everyone’s performances was fun. I really liked the way Hamlin and Lynette performed there’s and I also liked Victor’s and Cherry’s. They all really acted it out. On Wednesday we had to act out again. This time with my group from Monday. My group acted out Act 3, Scene 1. Zan played Song and I played the judge. I had to change my voice and make it sound like a man. I had to because in the beginning of the class we learned something about how if you were going to play a man and you were a girl playing the part then you have to change the voice into a man. When my group was practicing,I was nervous to play the part of the judge because in the beginning I couldn’t make my voice sound like a man. I asked my group and they said that it was good but I needed to be a little louder. When we acted it out in front of the class I thought it went alright. I thought Zan did a good job changing his voice into a girl in the parts when Song the character changed his voice from a man to a woman when he played Song.

On Monday we had a quiz and it was the first day we acted out scenes in M.butterfly. The quiz to me was hard I think it was because I didn’t read Act 3, and so I didn’t know what happened in the end. We acted out scenes and my group had to act out Act 2, Scene 6. This scene is at a party where Gillimard meets Renee. Acting was kind o f hard because I played Renee and i did not do a good job playing her. I just stand up there and read my lines. I was nervous trying to act in front of the class because I’m not comfortable doing something like this. I learned that it is best to not stand reading your script because that would just be boring. So what i learned from Marshall is that when you are reading your script standing you should try to move around so it looks more realistic. And it seems there is more action going on then just reading it and it won’t make the audience bored. Also what I learned about M. Butterfly is that this a script not a play because a play is acting out the script. And all along I called this M. Butterfly book a play.I never thought of it that way.

Victor and I were having a discussion about what the difference was between M. Butterfly and Madame Butterfly.  Gallimard was the main character in the story, where he acted as Pinkerton, who is from Madame Butterfly, from time to time. Gallimard is telling stories from Madame Butterfly.  Just like how Song plays Cio-Cio-San from time to time.

Gallimard has a wife Helena, and he is cheating with Song basically.  Pinkerton doesn’t do that in Madame Butterfly.

Today this morning, Me and my sister were on our way to school and we were listening to the radio on the station 106.1 and then one of Alicia Keys songs came on. It was one of my favorite songs. It is called “You Don’t Know My Name”.  We were listening to it and I was singing along. Then when it came to the middle of the song where she talks, me and my sister started to laugh. We were laughing because the talk host show name Chewy Gomez put himself on the song having a conversation with her. He made the coversation between really funny. The part that was so funny was when she said “so what do you do?” And Chewy says something like “Oh I deliver post cards” something about being a mail man i guess but something like that. Me and my sister were just laughing and laughing as we were listening to the song.

Yesterday on November 4th, I felt really bad for not going to math class again. I was  going to go, I  was walking to class and then all of a sudden me and my friends started walking the other way and i said “So we are not going?” and they were like “No let’s get somthin to eat” and I was like “alright” I was really hungry so i didn’t go to class again so me and my friends went to quickley’s. I felt bad again for not going to class since i haven’t went for a week so i promise myself that I would go to class next week. Then I went to english/elit class and i thought yesterday’s class was really cool. I enjoyed watching and listening to everyones films and spokenwords. There are very talented and people in this class and they are so deep too! I really loved everyones films and spokenwords each one was really creative and interesting.

At first reading M.Butterfly was kind of confusing. What confused me was when the characters Gillimard and Marc was playing two different characters at the same time.I was reading it and I was like wait a minute are they the same character?So I had to read this part again.Then I realized that they are playing two different characters. Gillimard also playing Pinkerton and Marc playing Sharpless. Then I was lost when I read Act 1 scene 5 about the part of Gillimard and this girl who has no name that is just called girl. I was kind of confused of what happened in that scene.I was like he is in his prison cell so how can the girl be there talking to him? I thought maybe Gillimard is dreaming it but I am not sure if he is. So then in the end it of this scene it says that the” lights go down on her. Music off. Slience, as Gillimard puts away his magazines.” So then I was thinking maybe he wasn’t dreaming he was just pretending talking to this girl and fantasizing what she would say to him while he was looking at the magazine.

Today on October 22, 2009 i woke up thinkin i dont want to go to school today because i just want to sleep in. I woke up and the first thing i did was look at my window and i realized that the outside really looked bad gloomy and sad lookin. But i still wanted to wear shorts because i didn’t want to wear pants but i was hopin that no one would think i am crazy because the weather is so bad. Comin to school was the same as everyday but i went to my math class since i haven’t went all week but then i got my test back and then it made me so mad. I didn’t do so well and i failed it and everyone did good and i feel so stupid that i felt i was the only one who didn’t understand what i learned in math. So i guess this ruined my whole day thinkin i should just drop this class.